Not For Long

   I have never really being affected by Anorexia.  I did not always have control over what I ate and how much I ate.  There was a time that I couldn't eat because I always felt full, or that I was too hungry to eat.  I always made sure that I got the right nutrients to eat though.  If I couldn't eat I would drink milkshakes, so mom wouldn't be too worried.  I would pass hours on the dinning room with mom half asleep, waiting for me to finish eating my dinner.  I would get up carefully and quietly to not wake mom up, and throw my food away.  I always exercised  and participated at school activities.  As I grew older I got a more normal appetite  but once in a while I would get a bit too tired.  Now I skip a meal once in a while.  I never actually thought about how it affected my family and friends until I started reading "Skinny" by Ibi Kaslik.
   I never really went too far with starving myself.  I had the cation of people worrying about me, specially during school and in school.  I had friends at school, but we didn't really hang out.  That's one thing I can relate and connect with one of the main characters.  Giselle Vasco faced death when she starved her way through college.  She was bought home for recovery after her treatment in the hospital there wasn't anyway that she was going back to school.  I was always terrified that something like that would happened to me. What would my friends think about me?  They wouldn't understand. That's what gave me the strength to keep eating.  I knew that I needed to stop my bad habit.  I tried so hard that sometimes it was too much.  I became more aware of what my friends did and what they ate and what I ate.
   My parents started noticing that I packed lunch everyday.  The next visit I had with my doctor my weight was actually almost right to what a child my age would have.  I felt proud.  Sure, what I did and what my parents and I had to go through would hunt us until the ends of our lives, but the important part was that I had gone through it and never gave up.  I'm sure thousands of people go through this and have to deal with it and can tell that they are hurting their family.  A lot of this people don't even make it to get cured, I bet they just commit suicide.  A sum of the people who suffer of sicknesses die every day all around the world.  I am proud to say I am a fighter and a survivor.  And many others are too.  This is a battle that will last forever because it's something that every generation goes through.  I don't know if people will be able to stop Anorexia, be  it can be prevented.   

Just Run Away

In the deep dark forest I ran way from.
I took the liberty to stay way forever,
And go somewhere where you aren't.
I'll be free from harm and will be able to listened,
And to be heard.
I'll be able to surround myself with happy music.
And you won't be there to hurt me, no more.
You won't be able to harm a fly,
'cause I'm fly like a G6.

Jennifer's inspiration

She types, even when she doesn't know what it says.
She laughs though she's serious.
She tries hard but nothing comes to mind.
She's ready to give up, but the bell saves her.
And so she leaves.
With no post,
And no imagination to her respond
Towards her book.

Only Me

Only me.
Lonely me.
For I stay in the shadows.
Alone in the dark.
In the dark parts of the world.
No one else.
But only me.

Later

Later
Alligator
Tonight
Entertain only
Regardless of our presence

Bloging!!!

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To think you were there!

To be sure that you would come.
To have believed in you,
And have faith in you.
You thought I wouldn't realize!
What I fool you were, to think of me,
Your own daughter, to be so ignorant, so dump .
Well,  guess what?
She's not so stupid, now, is she?
She knew you too well to be fooled again.
She grew up and  she realized, that you were thinking she was in a fantasy.
A fantasy that she thought you cared for her, and that ended up being a lie.
So, if you thought I didn't notice you weren't in the crowed, you were wrong.
But the good thing about that is that I learn to get out of that fantasy,
And embrace the real world.
To you I was a joke.
But to me you were the foolish clown,
With a fake smile.

Cold winter's day

I may be human looking,
But I really am not.
For If you seek past my beauty you may see I'm bewitched.
I take all men to the dark depth of the forest,
And I eat them alive.
I take their rotten souls,
For they must be vanished.
They must be gone.
So be a good boy and listen to what I have said
And take my advice.
Don't do something that you will regret.
If not I will come and take your soul, with your life too.
study hard, be kind, and get a job.
Get married and live a long happy life.
This is a warning,
There are no second chances.
Take it or leave it.
It's your choice.
I will come back, and check on you.

Dance of freedom

We dance to be free.
We dance because we are free.
We share our pain and our concerns,
Because no one else will understand it.
Men only seek love through their eyes but not through their heart.
Only few that really value us try to understand us.
But pain is good.
It makes you strong.
Though we may be far apart, we are close at heart.

Proceeding With The Book!

   So, I had stooped reading Sophie's World.  It was bugging that I hadn't finish a good educational book.  But I decided to just continued to get it over with after a while.  So far Sophie is trying to figure out a mystery that will take her  to thinking and imagination to the next level.  Sophie has to find clues on while on the journey to becoming a phylosopher. She has lots to learn before she can even put all the pieces together.  All in all it's amazing and I'm glad I got back at it.

Dear Mr. Colin Walsh,

   I thought that you were very good at making up a song while in the process of singing it to the whole class.  The way you were passing around through the class made me realize that you were thinking really hard to come up with the words.  Though, I do have to say that it was highly inappropriate behavior.  For I recall that the end was highly disrespectful to women, and us young girls.
   I, as a growing child to the world, think that it is unfair that men only think of the women's appearance all the time.  I always have thought that it is unfair to people who are being judge by their looks and actions before we know their whole background.  But recently it has been bothering more than usual.  Since we are reading Romeo and Juliet.  What got my attention the most was that people have always judge each other by looks.  No matter how many years pass by,  people still do the same.
   Now, back you Mr. Walsh.  How on earth did you come up with the nerve to sing the beginning of the song next to poor Ms. Daisy Feregher.  You could see that she was having a good laugh but she didn't really understand what you were talking about... that is until the end.
    And how dare you finish that song, next to me at my table with my group of friends sitting on that table and the ones around!  Some nerve that you have!
   I am sure that you didn't mean anything in a bad way to hurt people, but I fear that your lyrics had more than just one meaning, that is the worlds that I could make out since I couldn't really understand what you were saying.

The light.

  Well, I'm not really sure how creative I have to be for this blog.  The truth is I'm not really sure what I'm supposed to be writing about, all I know is that it has to be a response for Romeo and Juliet the modern movie.  So, I have made the choice to write about the lighting and close ups.  Tough I'm not pleased that I have to write about Romeo and Juliet, just to be sincere.  I've never really like Romeo and Juliet the characters themselves for not really planing their future together.
   The main scene that  got my attention was the beginning.  The car of Montague was pulled over next to the gas station. In the other side there were different. Why were there so many close ups in the beginning, with so many colors and people?  Well I think it was to show the different characters and their personalities.  To me it was incredibly interesting to start a movie that way.  It's an introduction but not only to the movie, but to get to know every character personally.
   The first act scene one started showing how Tybalt is so powerful and confident, While Benvolio is the opposite when they are in battle.  The way Tybalt stares strait to the camera while he has a smug smirk on his face.  Benvolio is looking at Tybalt with a fearful actions, and not looking straight to the camera.  For him to show fear was easy but to his opponent it game him an overlook of an easy battle.  But to his surprise at the end they were ready to shoot and kill each other at the same time.
   The parts were surely well plan for the lighting.  In each section the Capulet's and the Montague's kept their own colors and lighting.  But what caught my attention the most was that at the end, when both Romeo and Juliet die, their whole surroundings is bathed in white.  But when you see the prince also known as a police chief in the movie, It is dark and no one is crying.  And that includes both of the fathers of the young lovers.

Romeo & Juliet

   Two households, both the same in dignity.  But don't get along.  In the end their children's life end, due to the love towards each other, and the rivalry of the family which made them stop their affections to each other.  But nothing will stand in their way of their love and were willing to to give up their own lives.  As they did so, the parents realized that their foolishness must come to a stop.  Though, sometimes it takes people's life's way, too bad that someone has to be

sacrificed.